Monday, December 9, 2013

Angels (12/9/13)


Angels !

December 8, 2013

I am woman!  Hear me roar!  …as I crawl into my little uncomfortable space.  This chemotherapy is kicking my butt, upside down and sideways!  The Paclitaxel affects my nerves and nerve endings!  Honestly, it affects my nerve endings, but I am short-tempered!  There is no way to get comfortable, in or out of bed.  I am bone-weary and my fingers and toes are tingling and numb and it’s lovely to be told to let them know if I begin tripping and falling down!! J 

During a conversation with a friend, who has had her own battle, she mentioned that during her struggle with tumors her mother asked her “where are all of your friends?”  There was no one around.  I must admit I never knew about her fight until afterwards.  How do we gain support and see all of our angels if we keep this trapped inside us?  Is this a stigma?  If we mention this dreaded sickness, does it appear that we seek sympathy, are we embarrassed?  Then again, we don’t paint a placard and walk around declaring this disease… giving it power.  To this day my mother, who is a breast cancer survivor, has not shared with anyone (other than her sisters).  She says… “people always know or have heard of someone who died and when you’re going through this, the last thing you want to hear is about someone’s uncle’s cousin who had the same thing who died four months later.” 

I walk around with my bald head never giving it a second thought that others may be uncomfortable with it.  I don’t wear a placard, but if asked, I have no problem answering questions.

The greatest thing has happened to me though.  In my truth, I began to notice angels around me.  Let each of you look out not only for his own interests, but also for the interests of others.  - Philippians 2:4  When I walked into the barber shop and began bawling and traumatized the barbers there - Tony was very gentle with me - thank you!  That a friend and her daughter would fix meals for my family on the lowest days after chemotherapy - thank you!  That my nieces would call or send me a note to encourage me - thank you!  That your calls and texts "checking on me" continue to encourage me - thank you!  That Nigel, Whitney and Cheryl would shave their heads as well... crazy :) but thank you!  God continues to bless and surround me with angels!

Our Daily Bread says:  “We too can serve as caretakers to the weak and weary. …we have ways to honor God by helping others.  As we seek to serve those in need, may the grace of God that reached us in our need move us to reach out to others in theirs.”

What does the Lord your God reqire of you, but ... to walk in all His ways and to love Him. - Deuteronomy 10:12

Merry Christmas everyone!