Monday, December 9, 2013

Angels (12/9/13)


 


Angels !
 
 
 

December 8, 2013

I am woman!  Hear me roar!  …as I crawl into my little uncomfortable space.  This chemotherapy is kicking my butt, upside down and sideways!  The Paclitaxel affects my nerves and nerve endings!  Honestly, it affects my nerve endings, but I am short-tempered!  There is no way to get comfortable, in or out of bed.  I am bone-weary and my fingers and toes are tingling and numb and it’s lovely to be told to let them know if I begin tripping and falling down!! J 

During a conversation with a friend, who has had her own battle, she mentioned that during her struggle with tumors her mother asked her “where are all of your friends?”  There was no one around.  I must admit I never knew about her fight until afterwards.  How do we gain support and see all of our angels if we keep this trapped inside us?  Is this a stigma?  If we mention this dreaded sickness, does it appear that we seek sympathy, are we embarrassed?  Then again, we don’t paint a placard and walk around declaring this disease… giving it power.  To this day my mother, who is a breast cancer survivor, has not shared with anyone (other than her sisters).  She says… “people always know or have heard of someone who died and when you’re going through this, the last thing you want to hear is about someone’s uncle’s cousin who had the same thing who died four months later.” 

I walk around with my bald head never giving it a second thought that others may be uncomfortable with it.  I don’t wear a placard, but if asked, I have no problem answering questions.

The greatest thing has happened to me though.  In my truth, I began to notice angels around me.  Let each of you look out not only for his own interests, but also for the interests of others.  - Philippians 2:4  When I walked into the barber shop and began bawling and traumatized the barbers there - Tony was very gentle with me - thank you!  That a friend and her daughter would fix meals for my family on the lowest days after chemotherapy - thank you!  That my nieces would call or send me a note to encourage me - thank you!  That your calls and texts "checking on me" continue to encourage me - thank you!  That Nigel, Whitney and Cheryl would shave their heads as well... crazy :) but thank you!  God continues to bless and surround me with angels!

Our Daily Bread says:  “We too can serve as caretakers to the weak and weary. …we have ways to honor God by helping others.  As we seek to serve those in need, may the grace of God that reached us in our need move us to reach out to others in theirs.”

What does the Lord your God reqire of you, but ... to walk in all His ways and to love Him. - Deuteronomy 10:12

Merry Christmas everyone!

16 comments:

  1. We serve a God who is yet in control. He is still on the throne. William Mcdowell has a song that says I surrender all to you; withholding nothing. That's what we have to continue to do; give all our life trials and tribulations to Him; knowing that He's going to bring us through.
    http://www.bing.com/videos/search?q=william+mcdowell+withholding+nothing&FORM=VIRE2#view=detail&mid=584655F71B1B59E0DCB9584655F71B1B59E0DCB9

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  2. My Charmaine my dear. I needs to be more helpful to you . I will do my best to get the things that helped me over to you and I will check in weekly either by text or a call. Pray my love think positive. Do everything that you want to do for yourself .make a list if all the things you would like to do and in those days that you feel good do them if you need company just let me know. I promise from today to be there for you the best I can and Christmas dinner will be delivered by yours truly Terry . Peace and love my dear and if you ever need to talk it can be 3 am anytime call me. I promise to be your angel in the night. Love you girl. Them angelic laugh I have ever heard in my life comes from you. Keep laughing

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    1. You are a sweetheart Terry! You've been through so much. Thank you.

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  3. Beautiful as always!! You are such an inspiration. May God continue to bless you and your family!!! xoxo

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  4. Charmaine, We are all so blest that you are sharing this journey with us so that we can add our prayers to yours. Thank you for letting us into this space of your life. I know there are days you probably want to just scream and you should but just continue to hang on to your faith in Jesus knowing that whatever you ask, he will grant. Sometimes we do not always get what we ask for because our Lord knows that it is not best for us but healing is something he has never refused his friends and brothers and sisters during his walk in this life so continue to ask for your healing. We will all continue to ask for total healing of your body also. You make us laugh so much that God knows we need you probably more than you need us.
    Love you very much my sister.

    Love and God's blessings to you.
    Sandra

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    1. Thanks sis - I will always be your little big sister :) Love you so much!

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  5. Hey Char, GOD BLESS you. I know that I do not akways get the time to say I Love you,my Aunt, Big Sis, Friend,so I am saying it know Love you woman of God. I remember when we were younger how young and crazy we were then. Over the years we drifted apart. But you are in my heart always,I pray for you everyday. My church family keeps you in prayer. You are a strong black confident young woman. I kniw tgat tge God we serve will bring you through this. Thankyiu fir journaling/ blogging, please remember I am not that far away, if you need anything do not hesitate to call. I will be there.. love you lots God Bless.

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  6. Kudos on the blog, you are getting the hang of things. I wish I could just come and sit with you. I used to just sit with my Mom while she was getting chemo. I would run out and get 1 of the 2 things she still liked.

    We all have a story and most often we don't share it for whatever reason. I feel honored that you share your story here. I'm always praying and thinking of you. I talk about you to my family sometimes.

    Your strength is amazing, even when you don't feel so strong. Love you lots. <3

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    1. Many thanks to you my amazing friend - I'm following in your footsteps. I love your "authentic" voice. Love you, love you, love you!

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  7. Indeed Angels are surrounding you always! Angels stick together ;) It's great to hear your angels are going through this with you. Only those in your shoes know how you feel in every aspect. Those that does not, must be patient and rub your back ( from a distance lol)

    You truly are an inspiration. You are a strong woman even when you're not feeling well; you display a strong characteristic. You will get through this. I have faith in you and HIM. Your mom has a point but it's good to have a support system too :) Love You!

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